Monologue (The War In You)

Now you’re free, why do you need my hands to hold your leash?
Now you’re free, why do you need my words to feed your ears?
Now you’re free, why do you need my sadness for your highs?
Why do you search the bad in me to keep your pulse alive?

I won’t be the tragic backdrop in your placid mind
Your shortcut to some misery and pain
To fill your flawless life

No, your backdoor into spaces
Where things sink and sink and sink and disappear

I thought you’re happy where you are, aren’t you?
Happy where you are, my dear

I won’t be the war in you now that you found peace
Blessed with someone else’s arms, why do you miss me?
I won’t be the war in you when things turned out so good
See, your dreams came true, my love
Why would you need me to ruin them for you?

Is it not like this: You’re free
And you don’t know who to blame
Your own unsatisfaction on but me

Are you not getting everything and more?
I couldn’t give you that
Wouldn’t give you that
Never gave you that
Why do you think I will?

See, is it not that you’re addicted to destruction
And I’m your key into self-pity
Oh, so silly, why do you miss me?

Now you’re free, why do you come back to me?
Why do you come back to me?
Why do you come back to me?

See, I bet you can not tell what part of me you love
Yeah, I bet you can not tell me one good reason to
Swallow all my lies until they come back up
Even if I never meant to, I still did what I did to you

Yeah, I guess I never was the one they wished for you
They even told you to leave, didn’t they?
Told you to leave before you’re too stuck in my grip
Leaving my taste on your lips
Makes no sense, love someone else
Love someone else

I won’t be the war in you now that you found peace
Blessed with someone else’s arms, why do you miss me?
I won’t be the war in you when things turned out so good
See, your dreams came true, my love
Why would you need me to ruin them for you?