Bullets

I wonder if those bullets are coming
I wonder if I can catch them for you
I wonder if those bullets are coming
Will I try the best I can do?

So you, is this all I get?
After all the times we’ve had
Through our pain and grieve
Is this how you choose to leave me?
You say it’s for the better
But you leave me with the worst
And while you heal together
I won’t see you break the curse

I won’t be part of when
The spark in you lights up again
How will I begin to forget what you’ve left me in?
Oh, I’ll try to get over this alone
Find my peace again
And strength to carry on

So fuck you for denying my love to you
And fuck me for breaking down when you do

And I,
Haven’t been mad ’til now
I’ve just been a wreck ’til now
Think I hoped you’ld be back by now
That would’ve made more sense

Think I hoped that you’ld realise
I would make any sacrifice easily
Loving you gives love to me

And whatever may come
I just want you to be okay
It’s easier said than done
But I hope it goes your way
And now I’m too cut off
It makes me feel so used
Fumbling in silence
And silence is abuse

So fuck you for meaning the world to me
And fuck me, for not being who you want me to be
And oh, fuck you, for meaning each harmful word you say
And oh, fuck me, for not knowing how to make everything okay
Everything okay

I wonder if those bullets are coming
I wonder if I can catch them for you
I wonder when those bullets are coming
Will I try the best I can do?